my breast cancer story….

On Dec 25, 2013 I found out I had breast cancer as I was speaking to my cardiologist about what heart valve I should get. I was having an aortic valve replacement that day. By the way, I picked the bovine valve. At that time, I really couldn’t deal with my breast cancer diagnosis because I was being wheeled into the operating room. Fast forward to a year later and here I am in the same hospital now being wheeled in to surgery for a double mastectomy.


I was diagnosed with stage 0-1 breast cancer. My treatment choices were lumpectomy and radiation five days a week for eight weeks or a double mastectomy. My older sister had breast cancer twice and decided to have lumpectomies both times. I tested negative for the BRCA gene but the geneticist said I have some sort of breast cancer gene because my sister had it twice under the age of 60 and I was only 47 with breast cancer. The chances of me getting breast cancer again were high and it might be more aggressive the next time. I didn’t want to go through the mental agony of every single time I got a mammogram I had to worry “what if they find something”. So I opted for the double mastectomy. I knew it was radical. Some of my friends were trying to talk me into a lumpectomy because of the early stage I was in. One compared it to “if you hurt your hand, would you cut it off?” People say strange things when they are not in your position. My choice was not made lightly. I had a year to think about it. The reason I waited a year was because six months after my heart surgery I developed an abscess in my chest and they had to go back in and remove it. I needed to physically recover from that surgery.


I had what is called a Latissimus Dorsi Flap reconstruction. Basically they take skin from my back and reconstruct the breast with it. I was shown pictures and everything was explained to me. Right before I was wheeled into surgery my doctor begins to draw on my body. He is circling this, drawing a line there, putting dashes on my body. I felt like a connect the dot puzzle. There is nothing attractive about standing there having your body drawn on while you are in your not so “sexy” underwear!!!!


I am a strong girl. I had open heart surgery. I gave birth twice. Once with no drugs (another story lol). I was not prepared for the amount of pain I was going to be in. I had eight drains coming out of my body, I couldn’t move, and the pain was unbearable even with medication. The next day a nurse told me I had to get up and move around. My surgery wasn’t even 24 hours ago. She told me “sweetie you are going to hate me now but you will love me later”. I cursed at her, I told her I wished she would die. I said any mean thing I could think of. She was right though. I have since apologized to her!!!!


It is now almost two years since my mastectomy. I had a few complications along the way, mentally and physically. No one warns you about the physical pain and the depression you might go through after. It has not been any easy road to get to where I am now. I have lost friends over it. I went through dark months. Not everyone will go through what I have been through. Everyone’s experience is different. This was my journey.


4 thoughts on “my breast cancer story….

  1. Ruth, you are so brave and so very generous to share your experience. You ARE strong and you are amazing in so many more ways having gone through this. Thank you for sharing. xo


  2. Ruth I had no idea! You are stronger than you realize! I was once told we don’t get what we can’t handle in life and I have often questioned that. You have me in awe with your story!


  3. Ruth you are a woman of great strength and dignity. I respect you and am proud of you of the decesions you’ve made. I support you 100%. Always here for you. Thank you for sharing. Life gives us unexpected bumps in the road sometimes…


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